How the f**k are you still alive?

Hi,

There is nothing I hate more than the idea of dying. Well, it’s not an idea, is it — it’s a fact. I hate that I am going to die. If this concept catches me (I’ve gotten good at pushing it away) off guard, I’m immediately filled to the brim with panic and dread.

And so I avoid thinking about it by making documentaries, recording podcasts and writing W…