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What I continue to love about Webworm is being exposed to stories, music, movies, books I would never have come across, it’s made my realize NZ isn’t the Utopia us Americans like to dream it to be, as well as seeing America through fresh eyes, and the dialogue of fellow wormers in the comments.

I recently started listening to Delve and it’s made me realize how brave you have to be to voice alternate opinions and speak up against powerful people in such a small country. In the Fractured season of Delve they often mention how in NZ no one speaks up against doctors. This hit home to me how courageous your investigations into Mister Organ and Arise church were and what a personal toll that must have taken on you.

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I have spent the last year finding myself again after leaving a toxic job and decided to live a more authentic life going forward -- at least, as much as I can, given the parameters in which I live. A big part of that is getting back to the things I love most. Two of the biggest ones are going to shows & photography at those shows. This year has been a whirlwind of meeting new people and reconnecting with old, which seems incredibly wild because I think I spent the whole of my 30s wondering, how do you make friends as an adult??? And now, it just seems so easy & natural to me. It happens nearly every time I leave my house which seems like an exaggeration, but it's not...! I really like talking to people.

There are a lot of stories I could tell here but the one that most encapsulates the year is this one:

In September of 2023, I went to the Supernova International Ska Festival by myself. I had skipped the prior year because of work and I had just mostly fallen out of going to shows. I wasn't even sure what I liked anymore at that point. But after a year of getting my head clear, I got myself a hotel in Hampton, VA and just went, no expectations. And, for the first time in 7 or 8 years, I took my old DSLR camera with me.

I saw a few old friends from my time in the scene back in my 20s and a few folks I knew from bands but that was it. I had a good time, took some nice photos, saw some of my favorite bands, heard some new ones, but largely kept to myself. It was a good time. Very low-key. I thought, well, maybe this is what it's like to go to shows now as a legit grownup.

Over the days I was there, I kept seeing this woman walking around and I just thought she was absolutely gorgeous. Very striking. Great sense of style, smoking hot. I consider myself pansexual or bisexual but honestly, women pretty much never have that effect on me. The last day of the fest, she was wearing this sheer black dress coverup thing and I was like, damn, I want to be like her. I want to wear stuff like that but I could never. I'm too fat and gross. Later in the day, I discovered she was actually in a band; I saw her on stage with Rude Girl Revue, which is an all female band made up of women from bands across the ska scene. She sang! And I just thought she was incredible. I had no clue who she was but I was still thinking about her in the following days and completely hearteyes-ing over her. I messaged one of my friends on Twitter to tell her about this beautiful woman and was scolded for not talking to her or finding out any additional details about her. I showed her photos of the woman on stage and she agreed, yes, she's super hot, and encouraged me to find out who she was and tell her I liked her outfit and her set at the festival.

So, I looked up the band and found out her name is Karole and that she was one of the singers in a band called Stop the Presses. I followed her on Twitter and started comment on her tweets occasionally and we became friendly. A few months later, I drove all the way to Virginia Beach to see Stop the Presses play and finally got to meet her. She was so incredibly sweet; she gave me a bracelet she made and some band trinkets. It was still a little awkward and I didn't know what to say but overall, it was a good experience. We continued to talk online and then, a few months later, I attempted to see the band in DC, but missed their set due to traffic. This time, we definitely yapped a bit more. We were pals.

I'm not sure when I saw her again but after that, we yapped a lot. She was a friend. Fast forward to this year at Supernova. This gorgeous woman is actually my friend. We hung out and talked a lot. I told her the story of how I saw her and immediately had a crush on her and we laughed about it and took an anniversary photo together on the last day of the festival. And, that day, I wore a rainbow checkered bikini under a sheer black coverup and let everyone see my queer fat ass and I simply did not care because I felt awesome. This year, Karole had an amazing solo with Ride Girl Revue and she absolutely killed it. I was literally standing there going, OMG, that's my friend!!! That hot talented woman is my crush and my friend!!!

I just saw her a few weeks ago in Baltimore with Rude Girl Revue and it was pretty much a mutual gush session about how much we love each as friends because we love to lift each other up. Also, she was really gorgeous and I took a million photos of her, lol. Our most recent conversation online was about encouraging each other to purge some of our "too much stuff" in the new year even though it's sometimes hard to do.

That's how my life has been this year, though. It's incredible! Like, you mean to tell me that the ridiculous talented hot woman that lives in New York City wants to be friends with *me*?!! Sounds fake. But it's real!!! You guys, I grew up in Culpeper, Virginia and now I live in an even more obscure place called Orange, Virginia and I used to be an insurance agent and a nanny and I live with my parents now. I am nobody and certainly nobody cool. I am also weird and queer and neurodivergent. But man, people have been so kind to me this year. I have made so many friends and have other cool stories like this one. I'm not sure exactly what's going on other than, I am doing my best to be more authentic and not hide who I am. The things that got me in trouble as a kid and the things I was scolded for....the things my mother still doesn't like about me......are the things that people seem to connect with, I think.

I never make any new years resolutions but I think in 2025, I'd like to visit the west coast and/or get a passport so I can visit Mexico, Central America, or South America. I have more old friends to reconnect with and more new ones to make.

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